Oh what the fuck.  i’m sick and tired of feeling like i’m loosing my goddamn mind.  Sick of it.  Sick to fucking death.  i’ve been feeling like i’m falling into a million pieces lately and i can’t seem to pull it together.  i don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me.  But, i don’t like it.

i didn’t get a birthday spanking.  i’m not getting a lot of spankings lately period.  i do get fucked fairly regular,but D/s is missing.  And, i’m missing it.  i’m not going to complain to J though.  i feel like all i do is complain.  So i’m just going to keep my yap shut, and hope for the best.

Fuck a duck.  i’m in a fucked up mood.  i’m gonna hit the tequilla bottle and cry into the bowl.  It don’t help, but it does make me forget for a while.

What the FUCK is wrong with me?!?