Today J had me wear my play collar for a few hours. It really made me reflect on my submission in a way that i don’t usually as i go about my day to day business. my neck has been bare for far too long. i know a collar is only a symbol much like a wedding ring, i feel it is an important reminder. It is a comfort and a spur to do my very best in all things. i shouldn’t need a bit of jewelry to remind me.
i adore J. He and my children are what make my life bright. i think of all the things he has given me and i feel shame that i need a scrap of metal to remind me to feel those feelings. When i lost my collar (my day to day one) he wasn’t upset and i didn’t understand why. He said it was just a symbol and it didn’t make me any less his slave. But i let it.
i’m sorry J.
Always His angel 