Its ridiculous. my extended family drives me nuts. They pull at me all the time. i just want to be left in peace for a little while. Vanessa acts like i have no life except to do her bidding. Yesterday when my triffling ass respite worker actually showed up i had to go dye her hair instead of going for the walk i wanted to take. Today i have to go pick her up from the shop where her husband works instead of going for the walk i want to take. i’m fucking sick of it. i know, i know, no one can stop it but me, but the resulting sulk fest when i tell her no really isn’t worth telling her no. Manipulative little bitch that she is. Yes, i’m resentful today.
Another thing i wanted to talk about is how i talk about J in this blog. It used to upset him that sometimes he came off like an “asshole” (his word, not mine.) This is my place to vent, to let it all hang out, to tell the good, the bad, and the ugly. i don’t censor myself here. J is fabulous. i would never be in a relationship (let alone a M/s relationship) with a jerk. But he is a human with flaws. Expect to see them. You’ll see mine too. This isn’t a la la la life is grand kinda blog. You get the down and dirty sex but you also get the down and dirty he’s a bastard and the they are cutting off our utilities! Welcome to the ride that is my life. Hold on, it moves pretty erratically.
Always His angel 